Tiredness and time

Oh it really hit me yesterday, I woke up sore and hobbled about all day, then as the day wore on I because hit with the full force of tiredness.  I dragged myself to pottery and only stayed 2 instead of 3 hours.  Then last night, despite my tiredness had the worst sleep ever. So this is it, for the next 2.5 months...... It seems the only decent sleep I get is my nap in the middle of the day.  And the time, where is it going to, everything seems to be crammed into the little empty chunks.  I have started reading Neglected, by Lisa Genova, and so far it is about a mum of 3 with a high powered job and huge financial commitments, and the lifestyle she maintains on a daily basis makes me think a) she is mad, really really mad b) I must be lazy.   I don't (think) I judge working mums, I just dont know where they get the energy. I am usually there for the kids but even then don't have the energy to listen to everything or pay attention all the time. I am resentful I don't have as much time as I'd like to be a human being, so how would I cope if I had a job on top of all that.  And the ridiculous thing is that I kind of yearn to have a bit of an income and a bit of self worth, that I think I could only get through some kind of job.  I thin the answer might be self employment, in an area I really enjoy, which is why I am pursing crafty things, but that is me and all the other stay at home mums so Lord knows how I would  make it work vs all the other stay at home mums in the same boat.  I have started putting together some things pottery and crochet-wise for a Christmas craft fair being organised by the boys PTA but I really need to ramp up production as the fair is on 1 Dec and come the evening (optimum crafting time) I am usually bushed and during the day I am usually busy.  Come on Kirsten, sort it out!!!!